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18 MarParanormal Activity: was it a warning of something bad coming my way?

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I’ve not long to pen this for I’m wearing a bit thin these days rushing between home and the hospital, so pardon me for not glamorizing this entry.

The VERY next day after I saw that ‘shadowy figure’ walk through my home (see previous blog entry), I had to take my mom to the ER. She’s still admitted and is diminishing quickly; we’re ALL a bit baffled as to why considering the reason we rushed there in the first place versus what we’re currently battling.

It was due to INCREDIBLE pain returning in her back as to why we pulled-up to those ER doors this past Tuesday. Lo & behold, CT scan showed my mom has yet another break in her spine. Since she’s a life-long smoker, aged (almost) 80, these happen more commonly then most realize; however, her mental state is what’s our biggest concern.

When you speak to her, she stares at the walls as if she’s a vegetable; my niece described it like her being in a coma yet wide-awake. When she does try and ‘interact’, there’s no sense to what she mumbles. Until last night, she’s COMPLETELY stopped eating! They’re reducing almost all of her meds, yet she still just ‘stares’. Yesterday, I had a LOT on my plate so I wasn’t able to sit there with her 24/7 as I normally do — probably a good thing considering when I DID get to & was only there about an hour as to ensure she tried to eat lunch, she ripped my heart out! She kept trying to get out of bed despite she’s SO lethargic she can barely lift her arm (yes, I hand-feed her). Of course there’s NO WAY I could lift &/or carry my mom for ANY reason even though she’s officially lost 50lbs since my brother’s suicide this past Fall. So she was begging me yesterday to let her ‘sneak’ out of the bed … “please, help me” she’d say to me over & over! The nurses rushed in (for about the millionth time) to help me get her legs back into the bed and I was *warned* the next step will be tying her down! WHAT?! This same lady was shopping around Walmart not but a week ago – this CANNOT be happening! IT’S BREAKING MY HEART!

The doctor called me a little bit ago to tell me what’s his game plan and concerns. Her white blood cell count is rising so they’re continuing the antibiotics. He’s cutting her meds down TREMENDOUSLY … actually that was started almost 1.5-days ago yet she’s moreso still staring out into space versus watching tv or better yet, having a convo & making sense while doing so. She will NOT be going to rehab tomorrow as they initially predicted … something I had already anticipated hearing. She’ll be visited by a neurologist in the morning despite the CT scans on her head have come back ‘fine’. Curious, how does the brain’s “I’m willing myself to die” portion look like in a scan because that’s what I believe she’s doing?! She’s simply GIVING UP!

I’ve so much more to write … but alas, I really need to get back to the hospital so I need to wrap this up.

The point of this entry … the figure I saw, I saw within hours of all this beginning. I KNOW others have seen such entities as well. Curious, in retrospect, were those sightings followed by your getting a BIG ‘slap of reality’? Or it is all just coincidence?

Hugs & happy hunting …

Mellen

P.S.: Yes, my thoughts are scattered so please forgive any typos, etc. TY!

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12 MarParanormal Activity ain’t just for the movies!

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I had hoped it stopped!

I had hoped it stayed behind us!

I had hoped it just left us alone!

I had hoped my ceasing looking for answers to it changed everything!

I had hopes … but they vanished FOREVER after last night!

Unlike the movie, paranormal activity within your home — you know, the place where you are to feel most safe — isn’t entertaining, to say the least!

RECAPPING THE EVENT:

I was lying in bed playing around on my laptop with the tv lowly humming in the background while my husband was just dozing off as both kids were in their respective rooms having difficulty falling to sleep due to the recent time change. I looked up to see a shadow of our gaming table on my entertainment room’s wall. Something had caught my eye so I was staring at the shadow being cast upon the wall wondering if a car passing-by caused the capturing of my sight yet I heard no car. I sat up in bed still staring at this shadow; still appeared normal — as I felt it was just the gaming table reflecting off onto the wall, a reflection from the nearby night light’s glow. At least 20-seconds passed by and I was still sitting up and staring at the shadow. I had PLENTY of time to measure it. Stood about 7″ tall and it was symmetric with squared edges, from what I could gather. All of a sudden it TURNED to ‘look’ at me; ‘we’ made visual contact for a nice while despite I saw no eyes, no face, just a tall block of shadow nothingness … as if it knew I saw it and it wanted me to watch. It turned again and I watched legs appear from no where walking this ‘figure’ toward my sons’ bedrooms! I was stunned as this was DEFINITELY a ‘Top 10 Paranormal Moment’ for me despite my YEARS of experience, I was able to immediately react! I leapt out of bed and rushed to my sons’ rooms all the while saying loudly, “I don’t flippin’ think so!” so the ENTIRE house awakened.

I tried to get both of my sons into OUR master bedroom for the night but both were adament they were fine with simply bunking-up in the same room afterward. So I helped my oldest make a pallet on the floor of my youngest’s bedroom all the while thinking how HAPPY I am we adopted a puppy. The puppy loves my youngest insanely so they cuddle together at night; and as many know tis believed animals ‘sense’ things we normally do not. Knowing the animal was in the room with them for the night gave me a HUGE peace-of-mind as to return to
sleep … however my adding the Bible to the door way as well as blessing their room (& them) helped me cope some too so the rest of the night was uneventful.

Now, those are the FACTS in this ‘case’, time for MY feelings!

I was scared yet madder than hell! I will NEVER forget seeing ‘it’!!!!! EVER! And the BEST visual I can give you, my reader, is that ‘it’ was a LOT like the predator … yea, that’s a good simile. Just like in the movie and it paused, made eye contact & turned.

What do I think shadow ‘people’ are? Well, frankly I’m on the fence as I’m not fully sure what we’re picking-up with our paranormal studying is truly remenants of past humans; sometimes I’m curious if they aren’t aliens living peacefully amongst us yet knowing we truly are a violent animal, humans that is. We react with anger first so I don’t blame ‘them’ for hiding, if true. Or, what if it never was human.? (that reality frightens me so much, I don’t even want to go there in dialogue)

Let me add that I’m NOT stating it threatened me in any way as with ANY para-experience fear is emitted by the person who witnesses the event. However, I just didn’t like how it ARROGANTLY paused to look in MY direction (it KNEW I was watching & wondering). And then, taking a QUICK jaunt toward my children’s bedrooms … leaves room for worry.

Although I’ve heard a sobbing when we FIRST moved into our new home in 2008 coming from downstairs LATE one night as well as my son AND his friend seeing my sister in his (new) bedroom, this home is a quiet one; so unlike the prior home we lived in. I thought my staying away from ‘seeking-out the paranormal’ was the reason for our peacefulness — guess that’s not the case afterall. I’m a ‘magnet’ nonetheless!

Hoping this was an isolated event. If not, rest assured I’ll blog!

Hugs & happy hunting …

Mellen

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29 FebLeapin’ Lizards, it’s Leap Day 2012!

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Since all I really want to do is post a post on this day just to post a post on this day, SMILES, here’s a link to some interesting Leap Day factoids. *enjoy*

Hugs & happy hunting …

Mellen

LINK WOULD INSERT (help Ron!), SEE COMMENTS BELOW FOR A CUT & PASTE VERSION! :)

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21 FebEMOTIONAL ROLLERCOASTER: Death certificate speaks

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I apologize for not posting this sooner for I received my late-brother’s death certificate not long after I posted on here I had filed for a copy.

It told me what I had hoped WASN’T true … asphyxiation took my brother on 9/1/11. In other words, his neck didn’t break taking him immediately, he choked to death.

My mom knows I’ve received this yet has never asked to see it nor what it reads and I’ve no intentions of pushing it any further because this would CRUSH HER HEART, what’s left of it that is. I want her to think he went painlessly. It makes no difference either way now.

Just wanted to share.

*HAVE YOU HUGGED YOUR LOVED ONES TODAY?*

Hugs …

Mellen

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20 FebWhat do old people aspire to be?

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With every passing day I know my life grows shorter yet I remain empty. As children with our imaginative thoughts we develop dreams which turn into aspirations. But when you’re older with a dying imagination, what DO you dream to be?

Like so many other children, all my life I dreamed of fame, fortune, popularity just to have those dreams squashed. Most would blame others, however, I try not to. It’s MY doing … choosing whom I listened to; allowing their interpretations of my ‘dreams’ steer me, not resisting their binding holding me back. I’m an adult, I should have known better but alas, I did not so here I sit growing into an old woman with personal nothingness inside.

I’ve cared TOO much what OTHERS think of me!

As a child, I remember my mom telling me, “you’re pretty but not THAT pretty” as she didn’t want me to become conceited.

Interviewed with modeling agencies who told me I was too short, maybe tv but then needed to lose weight.

I’ve ex-friends who complained to ME how being my friend was difficult; how they were single and hanging with married me was a deterent to their finding a mate.

I’ve been told by my more ex-friends that I should “whack that hair off”!

Hell, I lost a LIFE-LONG friend because she didn’t care for my online handle, “Mellen”! [a name bestowed upon me by my now-21-year-old nephew who when he was only a todder found saying my long southern name a bit trying so he abbreviated it HIS way]

They also color me whimsical or foolish because I try so many vastly different things or take-on odd hobbies. My take is .. we’re all good at something, usually only getting ONE chance – I never wanted to blow that ONE chance so I’d dip my piggies just to see, so to speak.

How does one know their calling and when is it too late?

In my younger years, I had a VERY promising future as a white-collared professional but I chose to raise my family instead. I don’t want to call that a regret as that’s priceless for my sons but it does leave me a bit lost now that they no longer need ‘babysitting’.

When they both were in school, I grasped-out and took some classes as well, just to be asked by ‘others’ as to “why? what’s the point?”. Made me think, yea, it’s true … in a few years I’d have boys in college to pay for, we didn’t have that kind of cash to throw into me just prior, so I walked.

I shined once again with my unusual paranormal hobby. Literally, never dreamed such would hold any type of ‘dream’ possibilities, yet it did. My hobby achieved more toward my dreams and had a possibility for a future that anything before yet NO ONE supported me …. actually they laughed at me, some asked me to not talk about it in their home, and others demanded I only do so during daytime as a ‘married’ woman needs to be home at night. More of my family haven’t rather than have watched the multiple movies I’m in. Sad, but true! I was determined so I bought a lot copies and gave them as presents, yet only a few, A FEW, cared enough to take the time to remove the wrapping. Even my mom’s was still intact a few years later. [Paranormal] People began to hate on me to the point it was destroying my life and making ME just as ugly as they are, so I took a hiatus to think things over and to allow things to calm down … yet years later I’m still on the leave.

I know they say so eloquently easy how you need to only surround yourself with those who fully support you, those who bring you up and not down, and stand true to who YOU are yet I guess I simply do not know how as I’m a serial failure who EARNESTLY feels as if it IS ‘me against the world’.

I’m more lost today than I was as a child!

So, with all that written, again I ask, “what DO older, married folks aspire to be“?

Hugs …

Mellen

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21 Jan‘Help me! My house is haunted!’ with hostess Mellen

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I witness so many people opening-up about their interest in the paranormal lately tis impressive! Why? Well, I believe that paranormal entertainment has opened-up the minds of the mainstream public to the fact the paranormal is NOT a taboo’ed subject to discuss anymore. And, even though paranormal is still a psuedo science, it IS a science nonetheless for we’ll all agree that there ARE unexplained ‘things’ out there. [Later date - I'll get on a tangent about all of the different 'things' we believe play a part]

Seems ENDLESS paranormal movies have been hitting the theaters; the latest “Devil Inside” was awful! Curious, WHY would ANYONE make such a poor film like THAT one when there’s REAL evidence & TRUE stories out there ready to be shared (& ‘scare’ the watcher)? SERIOUS EVIDENCE DOES EXIST! Want proof: Did you, my reader, listen to my dead brother speaking to me on my recorder the night of his death? I have it posted to this site. And, I assure you when you listen, TALK ABOUT GOOSEBUMPS, be ready! So tell me, why don’t the filmmakers (ie.’Devil Inside’) take note to such TRULY SCARY STUFF versus creating such a TERRIBLE ‘film’? There’s simply no sense, tis nonsense, and I hope they realize that silly folk make for great jokes! And, the ‘Devil Inside’ is the biggest joke thus far!

I’m also curious why no science/spooky channels haven’t put-on a weekly paranormal TV talk show.?.? I think that having a paranormal hostess, *ahem*, asking those with truly active homes to come to the set while contacting legitimate groups in their area in order to get their site investigated just prior. After everything is completed, they could share their stories with the audience about their hauntings, leave the stage for the group to take seat and talk about their investigation of the site all the while ending with the ‘reveal’ as both parties are on stage … then, of course, we’d give all sorts of advice to help them with the future (as well as contacts for I’ve many). Sorta like a “Help me! My house is haunted!” kind of show!

I know I’m a dreamer but I pitched this to Oprah who apparently didn’t find it as marketable and I KNOW it would be. Maybe one day someone WILL listen … and if I’m lucky enough, I’ll be that hostess! (want to add that I’m an intuitive, with proof, so wouldn’t that make for a nice twist, *smiles*)

Hugs & happy hunting …

Mellen

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14 JanLifelong friends don’t go away, they rest in your heart forever!

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Although I learned of your loss a short while ago, I just recently learned ‘how’. Since, I’ve cried daily! (no exaggeration)

Please please please give Marc’y a hug from me, a long sincere hug! (wiping tears) I’ve no words of comfort other than I believe in Marc! He’s ALWAYS been a kind, gentle soul …. always! I’m so shocked – not fair, not fair! My heart is in pieces, truly pieces! And then I think of you … celebrating the birth of your first grandchild one day only to have to grieve days later! I wish I could have been there (but I didn’t know)!

I’m so sorry we’re no longer friends but as I just penned … friends come with reasons, and yours was to help me through my childhood and into adulthood. Sadly, it wasn’t in the cards for us to see each other through adulthood, middle-age, old age … as I had hoped; but, let me share with you that I do think of you often and miss you even more! I have kept you & your family in my prayers for years and will continue to do so. And yea, I’ve a void in my life without you; but, have come to realization life ain’t perfect and we must trod on regardless.

Despite our vast differences I will ALWAYS love & miss you, Shari — and I will forever, as a promise is a promise is a promise!

LYLAS!

‘Nan Nan’

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14 JanWhat life’s taught me thus far ….

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In my old age I’ve learned that life never gets easier – we simply grow stronger. The adage, ‘what doesn’t kill you makes you stronger’, resounds throughout my being with every breath I take. For if I’ve grown personally, it’s stronger! I no longer live life looking far into the future, I now live my life day-by-day. I take-in EVERY moment as if it could be the last. I’ve learned that life isn’t fair to anyone despite I’m unsure where any of us thought it would be in the first place since I know we were warned as children. I’ve learned by experience that many friends come and go like the ebb of a tide. Each has their own reason; each carries their own lesson and it’s up to me to decipher since regardless how long they’re in your life they leave a mark upon your soul; tis one you cannot erase, no matter how much effort you apply. Also, I’m trying very hard to forgive since forgetting is impossible despite I’m learning it’s unnecessary to try to forget for when it’s accompanied with forgiveness the wound is no longer worth remembering in the first place.

Remember, no matter what life throws at you, you CAN overcome it! You attract what you emit so try and remind yourself that bad times are reminders as to how great good times are. Embrace them equally and LEARN from them, as I have!

Hoping this finds you, my readers, in a ‘good place’, safe, warm, and enjoying YOU!

*HAVE YOU HUGGED YOUR LOVED ONES TODAY?*

Hugs …

Mellen

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05 JanEMOTIONAL ROLLERCOASTER: New evidence discovered, death certificate applied for

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Finally I had the talk with my niece in regards to her discovery of my brother; she was the FIRST one to discover his lifeless hanging body and screamed for help. Today I asked her questions about those moments; how did he look, his appearance, was he still or was he swinging? And I asked about his eyes, I needed to know about his eyes.

She calmly told me moments before she went out to check on him, she heard a ‘crash’ [now she's deducing that was the chair he kicked-over]. Moments later she opened the garage door to check on him. His body was facing toward the garage’s south wall but it was at an angle his face was in full-view of the door way. She told me that his face did not look traumatized, his head leaning to the side but down, his eyes were almost closed, and only a slight trace of froth alongside this lips’ corner had formed — “Honestly Mary Ellen, he looked peaceful,” she said.

She also told me how it unfolded. She opened the door and screamed. My brother & mom ran to her and the 3 of them together held him up & cut him down. Then once the noose was removed, my mom began pounding on Robbie’s chest with hopes to get his heart back to beating to no avail. Then Brittany started CPR and it was then she noticed the lack of support normal bodies have in their necks.

I know it’s odd that it’s been a few months since his death and we’re just now asking these questions between each other but in truth, tis really like being in shock! However after today’s talk, I’m VERY curious … knowing it’ll help soften the burden of guilt that is consuming her, I hope I can honestly tell my mom, with evidence, her son died instantly and no matter if she had rushed in there 2-seconds after he’d kicked that chair it’d still been too late … he had broken his neck, painlessly he left this existance. Sure it won’t bring him back but as a parent and her child, I just know that people just has to know these things in order to accept and move on. Plus, before hearing of all this today, I have sat up many sleepless nights, crying, envisioning my brother choking and reaching-out for someone to save him simply for him to die. I worried he did but didn’t want to, ya know? I VERY much want to put those visions to rest forever! HE WAS A VERY CRAFTY HANDY MAN … so if his neck broke instantly, that’s because HE made it happen that way to do what HE wanted and least painful!

So it’s with high hopes I pen this entry as well as the envelope to mail … a completed application, attached copy of my credentials, and attached a check because in tomorrow’s outgoing mail to the Indiana Department of Vitals!

I will pen more in his regard after what we truly NEED to know arrives.

*HAVE U HUGGED YOUR LOVED ONES TODAY?*

Hugs …

Mellen

P.S.: His ex-wife with whom he was estranged at the time of his death has a copy, I’m sure. And, although we’re truly trying to maintain a level-of-respect & communicate in his honor with her so I know she’d most likely share this with me if I only would ask. But, I’d like to do it myself, and see it with my own eyes.

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25 DecWishing everyone …

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…. a peacefilled, blessed, and safe Christmas!

Ho, Ho, Ho & Hugs, hugs, hugs …

Mellen

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